Some of my orthodox Christian readers seem to think that I am happy to be “free” of orthodox Christianity. They are wrong. I was very happy and content as an orthodox Lutheran. I loved my church. I loved God. I had no fears for the afterlife; I knew that Jesus Christ loved me and had gifted me eternal life with him in Heaven.
Life was good.
So why would I choose not to believe in Jesus as my Lord and Savior? Was it because I was angry at God? Was I angry at other Christians? Was there a secret sin that I wanted to indulge?
I would love for someone to prove to me that Jesus Christ lives and is Lord God of Heaven and Earth. Nothing would make me happier. But here are the reasons why I can no longer believe the beautiful delusion that there is an omnipotent, omniscient Jesus watching over me and promising me eternal bliss in heaven in the after-life.
1. There is no archaeological evidence of: two million ancient Hebrews fleeing Egypt; the destruction of the entire Egyptian economy by the Ten Plagues; the annihilation of Pharaoh’s army in the Red or Reed Sea; the wandering of two million Israelites in the Sinai for forty years; the skeletons of all but two of those 2,000,000 Hebrews buried in the sands of the Sinai; the Conquest of Canaan; the Great Kingdoms of David and Solomon; the temple of Solomon. For all these alleged historical events, as stated in the Bible, involving millions of people, not one skeleton, not one pottery shard, nor one piece of evidence has been found.
2. This lack of archaeological evidence for the stories in the first half of the Old Testament proves that the Bible is not inerrant. In fact, it proves to anyone with a reasonable, open mind, that the first half of the Old Testament is nothing more than superstitious fables.
3. If the Exodus did not happen…
If the Passover did not happen…
If David and Solomon are mythical figures…
…then Jesus of Nazareth was either confused or just mistaken. He was not the Passover Lamb. He was not the descendant of David.
4. If Jesus made errors, then the Bible is not inerrant, therefore, all the “paradoxes” in the Bible are not divine mysteries…they are contradictions just as they appear to be:
a. The reason that the two Creation stories in Genesis seem contradictory is because…they really are contradictory!
b. The lack of geological evidence for the Great Flood is not due to geologists not finding the correct evidence yet. There is no geological evidence for the Great Flood because it did not happen.
c. All the fantastic, supernatural “miracles” in the Bible are simply superstitious, imaginary fables.
d. If Jesus erred, then he did not meet his own definition of God, which means he was not God, just a good man. And mortal men cannot be resurrected after being completely dead for 72 hours.
5. We have zero eyewitness testimony to the Resurrection.
6. Paul only saw a light and heard a voice on the Damascus Road. He never saw a resurrected, nail-pierced body. Emperor Constantine saw a light and heard a voice too, but does that prove he really saw the resurrected Jesus? No. Paul himself calls his experience a “vision”. Therefore, we have zero evidence of anyone having seen a resurrected, walking, talking, broiled-fish eating dead man named Jesus of Nazareth.
7. The Resurrection story is rife with contradictions.
8. There is no evidence that any of the “witnesses” to the Resurrection were executed because they refused to recant their belief in a Resurrected Messiah.
9. The Doctrine of the Trinity is a theological construct that evolved over four to five centuries. It was not believed by the earliest Christians. It cannot be found in the Bible in clear, explicit terms.
10. There are no contemporaneous accounts of the Resurrection, Christian or non-Christian.
The loving, caring, compassionate, protective, all-knowing, all-powerful Jesus is a wonderful concept…but it is a myth. The evidence is overwhelming. I wish it weren’t true, but it is. The only basis for believing the orthodox Christian story is simply because you want to; you want to believe no matter what evidence is presented to you; you want to believe because you love the warm, safe, reassuring feelings your belief in Jesus gives you. You want to believe because the idea of life without your all-mighty “body guard” is frightening. And you want to believe because the thought of your death as the end…frightens you even more.
You call your belief faith. I call it sticking your head in the sand.
If you want to do that, go ahead, but stop reading this blog, because I can’t. I can’t stick my head in the sand and pretend the evidence against orthodox Christianity does not exist, because it does.
So why continue blogging? Just to annoy orthodox Christians? No. It actually makes me very sad to see their sorrow, anger, and bewilderment at my deconversion. I really enjoyed pointing people to “true” Christianity: orthodox Lutheranism. It really is the most beautiful form of orthodox Christianity.
So, maybe I continue to blog to convince myself that there is no hellfire and no eternal damnation for my “sin” of deconversion. But maybe I am also subconsciously holding out hope that there is evidence out there, that I have not yet seen, that will convince me that Christianity is true. Maybe I am hoping that you have that evidence.